WHY?

A series of questions invade my brain, only the answers have strayed from my mind They could be hiding in plain sight Blinding me because they shine so bright Not understanding why the champion does not place Why the cruelest soul come with the most handsome face Why the fattest ass in the smallest shorts lie in your bed But class and true womanhood doesn't even turn your head Why do I care as much, when I never cared before? Or better yet, why am I writing about it?

Why do I still get butterflies in your presence? And why do I want to be lathered in your essence? Why do your lips leak words that your actions do not obey yet I still hope Hopelessly devoted like Sandy, and like Danny you let my hope die So why am I still asking myself why?

Why do i use my finger muscles to text you, only to know they'll be no response? Waiting for a ringtone I know I'll never hear So unclear why this treatment I'm subjected Or how within months I was nexted But somehow the bus stopped for me

Why did you have to show me what I've been missing? Without even speaking, to you my body listens Too attentive to your movement And nothing soothes this Seeing you only irritates the scar Adding fuel to the fire Burning up the plate of my desire And it just keeps burning

Why do I have to go above & beyond for your attention And in the end I'm not even honorable mention? Just last Understanding it's not much history to our past But a past we do share. And everyday you make it clear a future is not there

Why is it so hard to let you go, when the truth is I never really had you? Stuck to a dream like glue Or pre-school paste Wondering how so much time I could waste Time I took out to live in this lie Time I'm still wasting now by wondering why